
Salam...
HappY-Sad oNe moNth to RUSYIRA....
it had always been a great time fulfil wif u ayg...
BUt today, on our 1 month together.....it turn out to be so sad...
We planned to go to PaSir Ris beach to spend a relaxing moment together after a week of stressfulness in school...
Took buS 3 to DoWntown EaSt n walked to the bEach..
We were laughing, talking and joKing wif each other..
When we reached the BeACh, it was so quiet n calm..
but no wind..haizz..
n tats where our cnversation on SmoKing starts...
i was so hurt to hear tat sWits stil have the intention to smoke.. i was all the time trust him tat he had totally stop..huhuhu..
n then i started crying...i dunno wat to say to him.. its like wateva tat came out frm his mouth are lies..
i cudnt stop the tears tat flow on my cheeks..
n Swits....he saw my tears, he saw how hurt i am n he knws tat he was wrong..
BUt wat did he do??
He asked me why im crying...tat hurt me mre.. i tot he understand why..
Then he seems pissed off.. i started to get angry wen he sigh a few times..
Doesnt he knw how to console me?
Doesnt he know how to stop tat tears?
Doesnt he knw hoW to say a special word wif sincererity??
i was really disappointed..n decided to go home...
i didnt have a peace there.. but turn out to be more stress wif our relationship..
Swits followed..
then he overtake me n walk so fast tat i was left behind.. n suddenly he was out of sight..
i start crying, knw tat i am lost..
im not familiar wif tat place..
calling out for swits... but he was nowhere..
Wat if i was kidnapped?
wat if i fell down n get hurt?
wat if sumone try to snatch my beg away?
is swits there for me???
is swits protecting me n guiding me??
NO!!
he was nowhere.. leaving me behind.. expect me to follow him..
i was crying...passer-by saw my tears..
i didnt care much, i just hope i can get out frm tis place..
Decided to call iQa for help..
i felt much better hearing her voice...
Alhamdulillah... with her help, i finally reached the bustop..
*thanks babyGeRl~ i luv u...*
Try calling SwIts when i reached there...
He answered and say that he was on the opp bustop..
then he cme over n we took bus 3 home..
Feeling tired n sick wif a bleeding heart...Swits cudnt see tat bleed..wen he already have a part of my life n heart...
Swits walked me home...i try to let all my feelings out..
crying...disappointed and sad...
Swits was all the time quiet..
Guess he have nuthing to say.. and he really doesnt knw how to mke me feel better..
i Was so devastated wif his character tat day..
tat i didnt think wat i just said...
i said "i Hope there wont be a 2months for us..."
n tat line..make tears rolling down on his cheeks...
He cried...i cried...
i dunn wat to say anymore..
wat i knw, i had hurt him n he had hurt me much tat day..
Without saying much...i took my steps home..
Hoping tat he wud stopped me n say sorry sincerely frm his heart and say tat he loved me so much..but....but he didnt...
And i guess he like to see my tears...
we separated...n went home..
tats the SAD-One monTh stoRy of RuSyiRa~
*To ayg... i luv u n i have forgave u..hope u forgive me too.. if i am not a gd gerlfren, just tell me.. i am very NOT PERFECT... there is nuthing special in me..til here, i wont dsturb u anymore..*